and so it is.
everything i wanted to say - and didnt.naked as we came.
i’m big on instinct. i mean its only natural, and we’re all just animals at the end of the day, arent we? i knew it from the first moment i was face to face with you under the empty night sky that it’d lead me somewhere better than where i had been left. and it has. sometimes i sit and think about how this isnt reality, it simply cant be. it transcends common concepts of space, time, and gravity. we are simply “we,” and we are here. or there. or wherever it is we find ourselves at the time. and in some strange way daily life has become this endless cycle between when i’m with you, and when we’re apart, and everything in the middle takes place in this warped and entirely mediocre passing state until you’re at my side again. i feel disconnected without you. i never knew it could feel this human, to feel so inhuman. every ounce of discouragement, or disapproval i’ve found in my habits or flaws, you embrace. “your scars are gorgeous,” you tell me after you sat in bed with me running your fingers lovingly over all of them, looking at me in an effort to make sure i didnt notice you noticing them. you’re delicate with me. but you dont treat me as such. you can handle my crude, dry humor, and bitter, cynical sarcasm, and my completely messy vulnerability. you’ve never stepped back or faltered, even when i threw everything i could grab in your direction. i can find something wrong with anyone, but i cant find a single fucking trivial thing about you that i dont completely adore. i love you down to every last hair on your head, and its that complete, nonsensical insanity that makes this what it is. makes us what we are. you are everything beautiful in the entire world, and every dream ive ever had crammed into one gorgeous green eyed boy. this is what i get for carrying on. i swear i never knew a single thing about love until we found one another. my entire past is nonexistent, and nobody remains to be seen. i suppose this is what its like to be reborn. the only person that’s ever made me love me, you’re what it means to be a man. a friend. a companion. a freespirit. i am in awe. let me stay in a daze with you forever?
