we always come back together, and you always take me back, but only half way. this time i felt something was different, and it was my own guilt that made me stray from you. i know better now than to return to my old ways, old doubts, old thoughts, but just because i know better; doesnt necessarily mean i do better. its as if fate finds a way to crash land you into my peripheral at the most hectic time in my life. and the way you spoke slowly, and with no ill will made me admit things i wish i hadnt, and even if i wouldnt take it back, it’s hard to remember to not feel. i’m doing a little better today, this is the first time in so long i’ve had anything to say on us, and as i’m sure it’ll always sting, the pain is almost bittersweet, because i know it doesnt last anymore, and sometimes i like remembering it all. maybe its true that you only know what you have, until you come to terms with what you had. seeing jaron’s smile is all it took to remind me where my feet have taken me, and how far and long i had to run after how you left me. it’s comforting to know youll always love them, and have those fond memories, and the not so fond that keep you from repeating the same mistakes, and its most comforting to realize what its earned you. thank you for everything.
