and so it is.
everything i wanted to say - and didnt.bloom.
i sit motionless, a cup of coffee resting between both of my hands at my waist. for the first time in a while, i consider myself first. i think about my health. where my heart is, as well as my head. it happens then - the desire that has been missing from me for entirely too long, returns. passion flows through my body, awakening my senses and sending my mind into space. the most unbelievably peaceful space. i understand my distant vision, and for once, its tangible. in that moment, i can touch it. wrap it around my fingers. i feel it. removing everything from my system that prevents me from being entirely true to myself. i am motivated. enthused. nervous, but prepared. i’m going back to two months ago, and perfectly okay with having nothing but myself. im truly excited. leaving everything behind and starting new, without running, without hurting myself, and making productive change.
